Carter stood unmoving as he watched Shirley being carried away. His hands were tightly clenched by his side.
Camille, feeling Carter’s displeasure, advised him.
“She doesn’t have you in her heart anymore. It’s meaningless to force her to stay.”
“ If she doesn’t have me in her heart, she wouldn’t have wanted to kill herself because of the pain. She couldn’t continue living with herself because she was certain that I was involved in Adam and Cathy’s deaths.”
Carter said in dissatisfaction. He sounded as if he was explaining it all to himself.
Camille sighed regretfully. “Perhaps she’s not destined to be with us. If she was, she’d be Mrs. Gray by now.”
“I don’t believe in fate. I only know that fate is in my hands.”
Carter spoke as he strode out of the room.
When Camille saw Carter giving chase, she immediately followed after him.
“Carter, stop!”
Camille called out to Carter.
“Have you forgotten what you should be doing now?”
Carter stopped abruptly in his tracks.
“If they’re yours, they’ll return to you eventually. If they’re not yours, it’ll be useless to force it.”
Camille’s statement instantly dimmed the domineering light in Carter’s eyes.
“Let her go. We should head back too.”
When Carter heard what Camille said, he looked toward the direction Shirley had left, his eyes gradually losing focus.
As per Shirley’s wish, Niamh and Kendrick sent Shirley back to where Adam used to live.
It was the house their parents had left for them.
After entering the house, they placed Shirley in the room she had used previously.
Back then, only three people lived in this house, so it had not been a lively place.
However, compared to before, this house felt abnormally cold and cheerless to Shirley.
Niamh thought that Shirley, in her current state, should have someone taking care of her, but Shirley refused Niamh’s kindness.
She did not want anyone taking care of her. She wanted to let her life run its natural course for the rest of her wretched life.
Sensing Shirley’s pessimism, Niamh gave it some thought, then advised, “Adam wouldn’t have wanted to see you like this. And neither would Cathy. Don’t do anything to hurt your body. This would only upset the people who care about you. ”
Shirley’s eyes reddened and she chuckled bitterly. “There’s no longer anyone in this world who cares about me.”
She looked into Niamh’s eyes as she spoke.
“Did you get the anti-toxoid test reagents? Just follow the instructions on the box and the poison in Kendrick’s body will be completely cleared. This is the last thing I can do to repent for my sins.
“Thank you, I want to stay here alone.”
Shirley discreetly hoped that Niamh and Kendrick would leave.
Niamh felt that it was not right to leave Shirley here alone, but Kendrick thought otherwise.
“Nia, let’s go back first. So many things had happened recently. It’s only normal that she wants to be alone for a while.”
Niamh did not speak any further when she heard Kendrick saying that.
Once Niamh and Kendrick had left, Shirley was the only one who remained in this huge house.
She knew she was a patient who needed someone to take care of her. However, she felt that the wound in her heart could not be healed no matter how people took care of her.
She had finally returned to the place where she grew up, but everything had changed. Even she was no longer whole.
Shirley laid in bed, staring blankly at the ceiling with tears in her eyes. Her vision gradually blurred with tears, and her heart, too, turned murky. She did not know what else she would want right now.
When Niamh and Kendrick reached home, Kendrick injected the first dose, following the directions Shirley had written on the box. He would need to inject the second dose a week later.
Niamh looked at the man in front of her and sighed ruefully. “ It’s been so long. I’ve even gotten used to how you look right now. The color of your pupils is certainly very nice, but no matter how nice it looks, it can’t compare to a healthy body.”
Upon hearing that, Kendrick smiled gently and pulled Niamh into his arms, then jokingly said, “That’s simple. I’ll order some amber-colored contacts and wear them every day for you.”
Niamh laughed when she heard that. It was such a rare chance for her to simper with Kendrick. “I don’t want that. I want my original husband from before.”
“Roger. I’ll definitely listen to my wife and quickly turn back to how I was back then.”
Kendrick went along with Niamh and embraced her more affectionately.
Elsewhere, Carter returned to the villa and decided not to go out for a long time.
He went to the bedroom that Shirley had stayed in. He stood there for some time before he walked to the side of the bed to sit. He lifted his hand to touch the pillow which Shirley had slept on. However, when he lowered his eyes, much to his surprise, he noticed that there seemed to be a book under Shirley’s pillow.
After moving the pillow away, Carter realized that it was a notebook.
It was undoubtedly Shirley’s notebook; he could recognize her handwriting at a glance.
Carter opened it for a look, realizing that this could be considered Shirley’s diary.
However, the content inside depicted how she started developing the anti-toxoid test reagent for
AXP69. She had recorded her experimental data every day. From this, he could tell that Shirley had been meticulous in developing the anti-toxoid test reagent.
She would record every small detail carefully so that she could work toward obtaining the perfect data.
Carter patiently read through every page. When he arrived at the last page, it was the day the anti- toxoid test reagent for AXP69 was completed…
Carter saw that Shirley had written at the bottom of the data. After reading those words, his eyes turned red immediately, his grip on the notebook tightened, and a dark, fiery hatred blazed in his eyes.
He slammed shut the notebook and walked out of the bedroom with rancor.
Camille was coming up the stairs looking for Carter. When she saw Carter walking out angrily, she felt it odd. “Carter, what’s wrong? We have to go back.”
“I won’t be going back for the time being.” Carter refused.
Camille’s beautiful eyebrows knitted together. “Are you going to look for Shirley? Just leave her alone. Don’t disturb her for the now.”
“I have my limits, and I know what I’m doing.” After Carter said this, he walked past Camille and went downstairs.
“Carter, Carter! ” Camille wanted to stop him, but Carter walked out of the door without turning back.
Shirley laid on the bed, alone, and groggily, she fell asleep. When she woke up, she was parched, and she wanted to drink some water.
She remembered that Niamh left some food and water on the nightstand before she left.
Shirley turned her head and saw the water and food, but when she thought about it, she seemed to have realized something.
“Heh.”
She chuckled, laughing at herself.
She was a cripple and a disabled person. How could she take care of herself?
If no one helped her and took care of her, she would not even survive for one day.
However, Shirley did not give up. She reached out with her hand toward the water bottle, but she was still a little too far away.
After a few attempts, Shirley, still unable to reach that water bottle, had exhausted all of her energy, and she was out of ideas to reach it.
She sighed softly and laid back down.
She recalled how she had been back then. She had been beautiful, and she had a nice figure, but now, her face was mutilated, and her legs were useless.
She was paralyzed below the waist. She could not even eat and drink like normal, let alone take care of herself.
Shirley laughed at herself, and tears started to roll down from the corners of her eyes.
“Addy, I know I’ve made mistakes, but why isn’t God giving me a chance to change? I’m the one who should’ve died. Why did he take your life away…” In agony, Shirley condemned herself.
Before long, warm tears soaked the pillow. The spring chill was in the air, and she felt extremely cold.
When she thought about Adam and Cathy’s deaths, she felt that she, too, was responsible.
Everything that happened, and the way everything turned out, was all because of her.
New Book: Back Home to Marry Off Myself
Loredana’s father left the family for his mistress, leaving them to fend for themselves abroad. When life was at its toughest, her father showed up with “good news” after 8 years of absence: To marry off Loredana to a paralyzed son of the wealthy Mendelsohn family.