“I hate you. No-I don’t mean that, I like you so much. I think I’m dying, Matthew.”
“You’re not dying. But I might be dying.”
Even though we’re naturally stronger than women, it’s common knowledge that men are ten times more affected by illness. Just ask your husband or your boyfriend.
Dee opens the drawer of her nightstand, jostling the bed as she pulls something out.
“What are you doing?” I groan. “Stop moving.” It’s the first time in my life that I’ve ever said that to a girl.
“I’m writing a note to Katie to have you fucking arrested for manslaughter if I die . . . and the hot dog man as an accomplice.”
“You’re a cold woman, Delores.”
“Better you learn that now,” Dee says, even as she moves closer to me. I rub soothing circles on her back until she rolls over and takes my hand in hers. And we stay like that until we both fall asleep.
Chapter 9
It’s amazing how close you can feel to a person after you’ve suffered through the torture of food poisoning together for twenty-four hours. That kind of intimacy can take months-even years-to achieve. I now know Dee’s cum face-and her puke face.
We both call in sick Monday morning, both of us still feeling wrung out. We take separate showers and I borrow a pair of her cousin’s sweatpants. Normally I’d have issues with going commando in another guy’s drawers, but these were clean and folded in the back of Dee’s closet, so the time lapse from the last time Warren wore them makes them okay. Plus, the idea of putting on my clothes from last night feels nasty.
Delores sits next to me on the couch, her Stompeez rabbitclad feet on the coffee table, wrapped in a fluffy, purple robe that would look light-years from sexy on another girl. But because I know there’s nothing but smooth, bare flesh underneath it-it’s hot.
I flick on the television and we try to agree on a movie to watch. The problem is, Delores has a vagina, which means her taste in movies ranges from awful to nonexistent.
Don’t scowl at me-I’m only stating what every man in the world knows. The reason shitty movies like The English Patient and The King’s Speech win Academy Awards? Women have chick-boners for Ralph Fiennes and Colin Firth. Sure, Braveheart won a bunch of well-deserved awards, but it wasn’t just because it’s the perfect movie. Mel Gibson, anyone? Enough said.
Dee defends a horrible chick flick suggestion. “I like best friend movies-they’re very empowering. Thelma & Louise, Beaches, Steel Magnolias-that one’s my favorite. I always imagine Kate and me like Ouiser and Clairee when we’re old.”
“What’s a Steel Magnolia? More importantly, what the fuck is an Ouiser?”
She looks simultaneously surprised and appalled. “You’ve never seen Steel Magnolias? Are you even human? It was one of Julia Roberts’s first movies.”
I throw up one hand as I object. “No-no frigging way am I watching Julia Roberts! Drew went through a whole year of Julia Roberts as a kid and he still hasn’t recovered. To this day, Pretty Woman quotes come flying out of his mouth uncontrollably. Not happening.”
“Then what are we going to watch?”
I scroll through the on-demand movies until I spot a winner.
“Conan the Barbarian. The greatest love story ever told.”
Her nose wrinkles. “Normally I’d be into Schwarzenegger-flavored eye candy, but I’m not in the mood. Let’s watch Steel Magnolias.”
I shake my head. “No. It’ll be two hours of my life I’ll never get back.”
Delores tucks her feet under her and rises to her knees. A sly, persuasive smile slides onto her face, which I’ve come to recognize as a sign she’s in the mood to get busy. She leans over me; I angle my head back to keep eye contact.
“Are you feeling better, Matthew? ‘Cause I’m feeling a lot better.”
I do a quick mental rundown of my faculties. “Yeah, I’m good.”
Her smile gets wider-more suggestive. “Then let’s make a bet. Whoever can make the other person come first gets to pick the movie? What do you say?”
It’s clear to me why Delores is such a successful chemist-she has such an amazingly innovative mind.
I scrape my teeth over my bottom lip thoughtfully. “I say this is a bet I’m going to really enjoy winning.”
She tilts back and slowly opens her robe. “Not as much as I’m going to enjoy making you lose.”
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It was close. If this were NASCAR, it would’ve been a photo finish-just seconds apart. But . . . Dee was the winner. She got to pick the movie. Although, I wasn’t exactly crying about my defeat. If you gotta lose a bet, that’s the way to do it.
Anyway, Steel Magnolias is well under way. And it just reinforces my opinion about women and films, because nothing is fucking happening in this movie. It starts off with a wedding and now it looks like Julia Roberts is going to die. Other than that? Just a bunch of girls talking and getting their hair done and talking some more.
Dee sits beside me in rapt attention while the lady from Smokey and the Bandit-she’s Julia Roberts’s mother-starts talking to her friends at the cemetery. Dee’s nose is already red and her eyes are watery. I turn back to the film and listen as the woman starts to scream and cry and ask how her grandson will ever know how much his mother loved him.
And out of nowhere I start to think about Mackenzie and-God forbid-if something ever happened to Alexandra, how Mackenzie would feel. Who would tell her, how much she would miss out on. Steven’s a great guy, an awesome father, but a mother-especially a fierce mother like Alexandra-that kind of love is different. More.
Irreplaceable.
And even though Dee’s apartment doesn’t seem dusty, some particles must have gotten in my eyes. I rub them, to get the irritation out.
And I sniff. Goddamn allergies.
“Are you crying?” Dee asks me with surprise and laughter in her voice.
Disgustedly, I turn to her. “No, I’m not crying.”
Then I look back at the television screen. Where Julia Roberts’s poor, distraught mother is screaming that she’s fine, when she’s obviously not. And about all the things she’s able to do that her kid never could.
Jesus Christ, this is depressing.
“It’s just so fucking sad!” I blurt out as I gesture to the television. “How can you watch this shit and not want to blow your head off with a twelve-gauge shotgun?”
Dee covers her mouth and laughs into her hands. “The fact that it can make me cry is one of the reasons I love it so much.”
Okay, that? That is like saying I love the table in my parents’ front hall because I’m gonna stub my toe on it every frigging time I walk past barefoot.
“Why?”
She shrugs. “Sometimes it feels good to cry. It’s cathartic. You’ve never cried over a movie?”
I’m offended that she even feels the need to ask.
I shake my head, but then stop as I remember. “Rocky Three. I cried during Rocky Three, but that doesn’t count. Anyone who doesn’t get choked up when Mickey dies has no soul.”
She shrugs. “Never seen it.”
“You’re missing out. Have you seen Predator?” She shakes her head. “The original Escape from New York?” Another negative. “The Warriors?”
“Nope.”
Then a thought occurs to me. “Wait, your cousin grew up with you and your mom, right?”
“From the time I was about six years old, yeah.”
“So you had a boy in the house-how is it you’ve never seen any of these classics?” I ask, though I’m pretty sure I already know the answer.
Dee shrugs. “Billy was happy to watch what I wanted.”
Sure he was. It’s then that I decide to take that poor male role modeldeprived bastard under my wing.
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By Monday night, I’m well enough to return to my own apartment. You’d think after almost two full days away, I’d miss it-be glad to be home. But it feels . . . quiet. Boring, even.
I develop the pictures I took with Dee at the park. And while I wait in the darkroom, I think about the last time I was here. With her. Her wet mouth, the stroke of her soft tongue, the way her cheeks hollowed out when she sucked me dry.
As my memory runs wild, I just barely contain the pussy-whipped urge to call Delores and implore her to come over. I succeed, but only because we already made plans for her to hang out here Wednesday night.
As far as I’m concerned, Wednesday can’t come soon enough.
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On Wednesday afternoon, I meet Alexandra downtown for lunch.
The weather is mild, so we sit at a sidewalk table outside. I take a bite of my burger while Alexandra crunches a salad with grilled shrimp. Then I tell her, “So . . . I’ve met someone.”
Growing up with Drew, I always regarded Lexi as my older sister, but the fact that we didn’t share the same genes, or actually have to live together, made our relationship much less contentious than the one she has with her brother. She looks out for me, but she doesn’t “mother” me the way she does with Drew. She gets annoyed by my screwups, but she doesn’t feel responsible for them. For me, it’s the best of both worlds-all the benefits of a big sister without the pain in the ass headaches.
“From what I hear, you and my brother ‘meet’ lots of women.”
I grin. “This one I like.”
She nods. “Once again, you and Drew ‘like’ a whole bunch of poor, unsuspecting ladies. Why is this one worth mentioning?”
New Book: Back Home to Marry Off Myself
Loredana’s father left the family for his mistress, leaving them to fend for themselves abroad. When life was at its toughest, her father showed up with “good news” after 8 years of absence: To marry off Loredana to a paralyzed son of the wealthy Mendelsohn family.