“Okay,” I swallowed and nodded slightly, not wanting to break his contact with me.
“I’ll be right back.”
I sat back in the chair and pulled the blanket around me, watching everyone else and feeling completely comfortable at home.
Caspien came back sooner than I expected, or maybe I just fell into a comfortable haze.
“So, Willa is officially joining our pack this evening.”
Griffen and Holden smiled at me and Nora sat up clasping her hands together.
“Finally,” Caspien added, “I know this isn’t traditional but we’re going to do this now and then get back to, uh, sitting I guess.”
“It’s called relaxing,” Holden said.
“Yes, well, that,” Caspien said.
He took my hand, and we both sat on the floor by the fire, even though it was summer we had it on almost every night, it wasn’t hot really, I would have to ask him how he did that. I bet it wasn’t even real, some hologram he got as a prize for being rich or something.
“Wilhemina Balfour,” I saw Cali gag at my full name, but her eyes seemed to, “Do you promise to uphold the laws of Crescent Moon, to protect your Alpha and Luna and ranked members as they will protect you?”
“I do,” This didn’t seem like a big deal. But suddenly, my hands were shaking.
He took my hand in his and cut a small slit on my hand before doing the same with his. He joined our hands, and a drop of our mixed blood fell into the golden chalice he held beneath us. It was final, binding, and everything that I wanted.
Nothing else existed in this moment but us. His eyes locked onto mine, his dark hair seemed to move and a wind encapsulated us, some of my hair tugged from my bun. A warmth spread through our joined hands. Neither of us could look away, nor wanted to. Everything and nothing happened at once after that.
I felt like there was something tugging back into place, something left me and came back to me. I felt warmth, respect, and happiness. I didn’t realize I closed my eyes until I opened them and met Caspien’s churning light blue ones. I was home. Welcome Luna, sorry Willa – Griffen came into my mind.
Glad to have you officially here – Holden said
Welcome, we are so lucky to have you – Nora said, she seemed to be smiling even in my mind.
I looked at them all and smiled widely. I don’t know why I hadn’t done this before. I wish I did. I felt whole and complete. This was right. I don’t know if it was the bond or The Goddess or something else.
I felt like I found something I didn’t know I was missing, but nothing would ever be right now without this new bond.
(Nolan)
I felt more and more irritated this past month. The only thing I could attribute it to was Willa trying to get her revenge on me by making me claim her child. But it was more than that, it was this twisted feeling of unsettlement that I couldn’t pin. My wolf was restless, and so was I.
Something felt off, but no matter how many times I fucked Camilla, I couldn’t find the satisfaction I was looking for. No matter how many times I checked to make sure my border was secure, I had a sense of unease.
I felt like I couldn’t figure something out like I was missing something.
“Babe, you’re going to need to get your tux re-fitted, we’re hosting the black and white ball before the conference, and I need my Alpha to look his best.”
Anxiety swirled through me, I couldn’t latch on to it though, I couldn’t make sense of it. I wasn’t used to this feeling.
I always knew where my stress was coming from-running this pack and all the s.tupid paperwork that came with it. Camilla droning on about parties and renovations, my mom complaining about Camilla’s choices, my son who wouldn’t sit down or stop breaking things for one moment.
But this, this was something else. Like something outside of me was trying to tell me something, warn me of something.
“Get over here,” I commanded her.
Camilla looked at me, tilting her head, “You didn’t answer my question.” She pinned me with a dead stare.
“I don’t care, I trust you. Come here,” I growled, and she stood up, obeying me.
I pushed her over the desk and pulled up her dress. I unzipped my pants, letting them fall before moving her underwear and swiftly entered her. The thrill of doing this on my desk was long gone, but I needed anything to distract me.
I thrusted into her. Hard. But I couldn’t find any satisfaction, any release. My mind roamed to Willa, and I let it. I imagined her beneath me, the sparks, her tightness, her innocence, and dedication.
I grunted and finished in a moment. Too soon, I wanted to drag out that lingering feeling of being with her, even if it was a memory. I pulled out, and my senses came back to me. F.uck her for trying to come back and use her son as a pawn.
No, I needed to see her. I wanted to. I would figure out how to reach out to her, she was still pining for me, and nothing would stop her from that. I would find her, and she would get on her knees in front of me and then lay back and let me fuck her any way I wanted. It would be good for the pack to get out some of my tension.
Even my Beta and Gamma were feeling it recently. I would find her and keep her somewhere hidden, I could use her as I wanted, and she would let me. For the pack, for my wolf.
“That was fast,” Camilla straightened herself up, raising a perfect eyebrow.
“That wasn’t for you; that was for me.”
“As always,” She sighed, pushing her hair behind her back, “Now I need your approval-“
I groaned, a pain shot through me. It was a prickling pain radiating from my heart. It seemed to intensify with every heartbeat.
I grasped at my desk, almost falling over. Was this a heart attack? No, I was too young, healthy, and a werewolf-
“Ahh,” I screamed, the pain. I clutched at my chest, falling to the floor.
“Baby, babe!” Camilla’s face came into view, “What is it?” Her eyes scanned me.
As soon as the pain came, it was gone, along with the feeling of unease that hounded me these past few weeks.
“Nolan, baby.”
“Get out,” I pushed her off of me.
My heart was still erratic, but I felt fine, better than fine. I had no clue what it was tied to, but it was bigger than me. Something was righting itself, but what did I have to do with it?
(Caspien)
itself.
Holden was working on convincing, actually bribing, their college to have them switch to online classes. He offered to pay for anything they wanted and come and record the classes himself. He told me if that didn’t work, he would try to sue them or buy the school I hoped he could figure out something a bit less intense.
Griffen seemed to be less tense now that he left Nora with Cali and Willa when we had meetings or had to go to the office. I think he thought she might fall and break herself if he wasn’t around, and having other ‘caretakers’ there settled his mind. A bit. A few days later, there were still no bites on our hit.
I got a call from my private secretary from my office at The Dracos group.
“Sir, there’s someone here to see you; he says you don’t know him.”
“What’s his business?”
“He said he’s answering your call, I was unaware we were hiring, but he mentioned a job.”
“Have him wait there where you can see him. I’m on my way.” I hung up.
I didn’t like that someone felt comfortable showing up at my office, but it was better than the packhouse.
New Book: Back Home to Marry Off Myself
Loredana’s father left the family for his mistress, leaving them to fend for themselves abroad. When life was at its toughest, her father showed up with “good news” after 8 years of absence: To marry off Loredana to a paralyzed son of the wealthy Mendelsohn family.