Feel the heat blooming where I wanted his hand to land. Feel the shame curling tighter in my chest. Feel the little voice in my head moaning again like a traitor.
Yes Daddy. Spank me. f*****g make me pay for it.
What the f**k was wrong with me.
Why the f**k did it feel so good to be yelled at like that.
Why did I want him to drag me by the wrist and press me over the hood of his car and do exactly what he just threatened.
I licked my lips.
My voice cracked when I finally gave it.
“Twelve,”
I whispered.
“Twelve St. Margaret’s Crescent.”
I waited.
One second.
Two.
Nothing.
Just the sound of his breathing.
…
Desire In The Dark
Then.
“I’m coming.”
Electric Storm
**Lyra**
And oh my God
Oh my f*****g God
The way he said that
I swear I almost blacked out
I think I actually stopped breathing for a second because the second those two words left his mouth my whole body clenched like it was trying to trap the sound inside me
“I’m coming”
That’s what he said
Just that
No hesitation no emotion just those two words like a command and a promise and a punishment all rolled into one and holy f*****g hell my entire soul just split down the middle and let the filth pour out
My p***y clenched so hard I thought I might scream again
My panties were already soaked and now they felt like a wet slap against my core and my n*****s were still aching from how cold the rain was and how hot my body still felt and my legs were useless at this point they weren’t even supporting me anymore they were just twitching and trembling and pressing together like maybe I could rub myself against my own skin and get one more orgasm out before he showed up and found me like this
Found me wrecked
Found me dirty
Found me needy and dripping and ruined like I’d never been touched in my life and now one word from him had turned me into a panting f*****g mess under a tree in the goddamn ra?n
I could hear the engine start on the other end of the line.
That low angry growl that sounded just like him when he was pissed off and trying to stay calm.
My heart jumped into my throat
Oh my God he was really coming
Like actually coming
He wasn’t bluffing he wasn’t playing
The man was in his car and I could hear the leather seat creaking under his weight and I could hear the click of his lighter and the way he inhaled that first drag of his cigarette like he needed it to stop himself from exploding and I could hear the way the tires squealed as he pulled out of wherever the hell he was and aimed himself straight for me
And I was just here
III
Sitting and waiting in the dirt
Still wet
Still trembling
Still high off the orgasm I gave myself five f*****g minutes ago
My whole body was pulsing
My throat was tight
My breath kept catching
I could hear my heartbeat in my ears and in my fingertips and in my f*****g clit
And then he said it again.
His voice lower this time
Rougher
Like a shadow crawling out of the phone and wrapping around my neck
“Stay exactly where you are kitten”
Kitten? When did he start calling me that?
“Don’t move a f*****g inch”
My lips parted
I couldn’t even answer
I think I just made this little sound like a wounded animal or a girl seconds away from begging because! swear to God my body reacted so fast it was like I’d been electrocuted
Every muscle locked up
Every nerve flared
My eyes fluttered shut like my body didn’t even know how to handle this level of want
I didn’t move
I couldn’t
Poits Y
I just sat there knees pressed together chest heaving hands shaking with mud and rain and leftover slick and shame and something darker something worse something better
And then
The voice that f*****g killed me
“If you so much do before I get there I swear I’ll f**k you right there in the mud
I screamed
Not out loud but inside
My whole brain screamed
My whole body screamed
Every single part of me just shattered into glitter and filth and fire.
Because what the hell
Who says that
Who means that
Who growls that into your ear like it’s nothing but a warning you’ll secretly pray he makes good on
I felt my eyes roll back
I felt my thighs twitch again.
I felt my breath leave me like I’d just been f****d senseless without even being touched
I wanted it
New Book: Back Home to Marry Off Myself
Loredana’s father left the family for his mistress, leaving them to fend for themselves abroad. When life was at its toughest, her father showed up with “good news” after 8 years of absence: To marry off Loredana to a paralyzed son of the wealthy Mendelsohn family.