I knew without a doubt that the moment he laid eyes on Lottie for the first time, it changed him forever. Then when Lainey was born..there wasn’t a dry eye in the room.
They were absolutely perfect..and of course they looked just like Robin, making them even more loveable.
I sat in the room, my arms wrapped around the small bundle of joy as I stared down at Lainey lovingly.
My dad was holding Lottie on the other side of the room as Ben helped Robin in the bathroom.
Then I heard the door open as I glanced up, expecting Viva, but instead, it was Caspian.
He just stood there for a moment, our eyes locking onto one another as he watched me carefully..some type if emotion crossing his eyes that I couldn’t quite decipher as he slowly stepped forward and peered down into my arms.
We hadn’t talked since our fight earlier and I wasn’t sure where we were at right now.
“Would you like to hold your niece?” I asked, making Caspian swallow hard before nodding softly.
“Sit here, I will put her in your arms.” I whispered, not wanting to wake her as I stood and watched Caspian do as I asked.
I slowly placed Lainey in his large arms, watching as Caspian stiffened slightly before he peered down at the adorable baby..then I knew exactly what emotion it was that Caspian felt earlier.
Seeing my husband holding this baby did something to me..a feeling I never knew existed until right this moment appeared and I felt my cheeks warming immediately.
Is this what it will be like when we have kids? I mean..if we ever do.
The moment he held that baby in his arms though..I knew I wanted it..and all that stuff from earlier suddenly seemed so small..even compared to this tiny little baby.
“I’m sorry.”
We both blurted at the same time, making us smile as I sat beside my husband and gazed down at Lainey sweetly.
“Okay..I will give it a try. For you, I will..” I whispered, seeing Caspian’s eyes widen as my gaze met his.
I know it will be hard..and I’m not sure if I’m ready to play in front of others yet..but seeing this..and witnessing Robin do something so incredible..I realized that sometimes we have to go through some pain to get the reward..but if I have Caspian by my side, I know I can do anything.
So yeah..I will go to music school..not just for me, but for my husband too, because he is the reason I even got in.
(Caspian)
I miss my wife..so fucking much.
I miss waking up together and our morning routine..I miss seeing her at lunchtime..me walking her to classes whenever I get the chance and stealing kisses every moment I could.
I know this is for the best and I know I wanted this for her more than she did even for herself.
But now that she has started going to her new school..fuck it’s been hard.
Since we are in the middle of our season, practices have become even more grueling, and by the time I get home, I feel exhausted.
But we still find time..like when I came home that one evening to Johnnie cooking us dinner, wearing only an apron..yeah, that one was memorable.
Or when she surprised me in the locker room after I stayed late at the rink to help a few of my teammates run a couple of drills.
That one might’ve scared the shit out of me when she snuck up behind me in the shower naked..luckily everyone had left by then..but I can’t take a shower in the locker room ever again without feeling a big smirk pulling at my lips.
I was on my way to practice now and had left Johnnie sleeping in bed when I suddenly saw her calling.
“Baby? Is everything okay?” I answered worriedly, wondering why she was up already. It was 5 a.m. now and she didn’t have to leave the house for her morning class until 8.
“Yeah..I just wanted to tell you that I don’t think I’m going to class today. I just threw up..” She mumbled, the tone of her voice making my heart ache as I gripped the steering wheel tighter.
“Do you think you have the flu? Do I need to come home?” I rushed out, already looking for a place to turn around.
“No..I-I think I will be okay. I’m just going to go back to sleep. I love you.” She whispered and I really didn’t want to leave her alone..not one fucking bit.
“Okay, get some sleep baby..I love you too.” I said and hung up the phone..then I proceeded to pull the car over and tell the coach I won’t be at practice today.
I don’t give a shit if he is pissed..my wife is sick and no way in hell am I letting her stay home alone all day.
I quickly turned the car around and raced home.
The moment I got into the house, I heard Johnnie throwing up again, making me run to the bathroom in a hurry.
“It’s okay, I’m right here.” I rushed out before placing my hand on Johnnie’s back and rubbing it gently.
“Why..” She began but before she could even finish she started dry heaving again.
I carefully pulled her blonde hair out of her face and looked down at my wife with concern.
This seems serious..maybe she really does have the stomach flu.
“Baby, maybe you should go in..” I said softly, as she finally sat back and took deep steadying breaths.
“N-no I think that was the last of it..I just need some sleep.” She grumbled and I watched as her eyes seemed to grow heavier by the second.
I quickly stood and grabbed her a glass of water, watching as she drank eagerly, and then once she was done, I scooped her off the floor and carried her to the bed.
“Okay, but if you throw up again, I really think you need to go in.” I muttered, not liking any of this. Johnnie nodded her head in agreement as I swear she was already half asleep.
Pulling back the covers, I placed Johnnie onto the bed carefully and hastily pulled off my shirt and shorts, leaving on my briefs only.
I slid in behind her, my arms wrapping around my wife’s small frame as I pressed her against my chest, causing her to hum happily in response.
I felt her cool cheek rubbing against me, and I let out a sigh of relief..just being here, and knowing she was okay right now was enough to calm my nerves.
New Book: Back Home to Marry Off Myself
Loredana’s father left the family for his mistress, leaving them to fend for themselves abroad. When life was at its toughest, her father showed up with “good news” after 8 years of absence: To marry off Loredana to a paralyzed son of the wealthy Mendelsohn family.