Morgan
It shocked me when she opened up to me just now. Granted, I was hoping with time this would happen eventually as we spent time together, but what she was telling me made me want to drive to where Mark lived and beat some sense into him. Jessie is a sweet and compassionate woman and he was an id**t to ruin their marriage because he couldn’t keep it in his pants. I never understood guys who could just sleep with random women when they have a wife at home like Jessie. “Jessie, I have started considering you a good friend too, and I will be there if you need to rant or rave at any time. What your husband did was wrong and he was a complete bonehead to ruin your marriage like that. I hope he realizes what he lost and he regrets it for the rest of his life.” Jessie looked over at me completely amazed, and smiled and said, “Thank you, that means a lot. Cheating is just something I can’t look past. The one thing I have to be thankful for is he didn’t bring back any nasty diseases. I made sure to get tested before i left.”
The rest of the trip went amazingly and we ended the trip at the Birdsong Nature Center and spent a lot of time walking the trails and gardens. We sat and just watched the birds before deciding it was time to head back home. I am starting to enjoy myself these days because Jessie was fun to talk to and I am glad she chose Thomasville to move to after her husband screwed up. I just hope once she is completely healed she will decide to stay here, because I could see myself really falling for her.
We had just gotten home and it was close to dinner time. Morgan helped me bring the cooler bag in and I offered to order a pizza for dinner for us. As we sat and waited, I pulled out a couple of drinks for us from the fridge and Morgan just stared at the table deep in thought. “What’s on your mind Morgan, you seem far away at the moment.” Morgan looked up at me and his eyes seemed sad, “Jessie I appreciated you opening up to me and I just want you to know that your not alone with heart break. I didn’t share my story with you, because I wanted to give you time to share your story with me, and as you can understand, these are things that are hard to share.”
I had not expected him to say that. Morgan was such a great guy, I honestly was shocked he was single. I sat there and waited for him to continue when he was ready. “When I was in high school, I started dating a girl I had known all through my childhood, named Karen. We were the same age and we were friends and spent all our free time together at each others houses. Our parents would always joke that we would be married one day and we always just laughed it off. As we got older, feelings developed and we started dating, eventually talking about the future and what we wanted. I thought we were in agreement that we would come back after college, get married, buy a house and have kids, but as we edged closer to graduation it seemed like Karen was pulling away more.” Morgan stood up and walked over to the window in the kitchen and stared out. “We were supposed to go off to the same college and right before graduation she dropped a bomb on me. Karen decided to go off to college across the country, and she was breaking up with me because she felt tied down and she wanted to date other people instead of staying with me. She said that she has only been with me and while she loved me, she wanted to experience freedom in college.” He turned back around and his eyes looked watery, so I got up, walked over to him and pulled him into a hug, which he accepted. How could anyone want to walk away from someone like Morgan? He was a genuinely nice guy who would do anything for anyone.
Finally, he backed away and smiled at me, “Thank you, I needed that.” he chuckled and walked back over to the table and I followed him, sitting back in my chair. “I know I didn’t experience the same betrayal as you, but I do know what you are talking about when you think you are with someone you will spend the rest of you life with and the crush your heart.” We sat there in silence for awhile and I asked him, “When she was done with college did you ever see or hear from her again? I was just wondering if she regretted her decision and wanted to try to get back together with you.” Morgan scoffed and said, “No last I heard she was still living in California, she found a job and a guy and planned to stay there. I see her parents now and then and I know they feel bad about how things ended, but I never had a problem with them, so I will visit them for awhile when I see them.”
“How long did it take you before you started dating again? I was honestly curious because at the point I am at, being that it was so recent, I can’t ever see getting into a relationship ever again. Even thinking of making my heart vulnerable to getting crushed doesn’t seem realistic at this point. I know honestly I just need time to heal, but the reason I asked him was I had no idea if I would heal.
“Honestly Jessie, I have only had a couple of short term relationships since I was with Karen. It is not because I was so hurt by what she did. That went away long ago, it is more that I could never really feel that connection with anyone. Karen’s was so simple because we knew each other all our lives and could easily predict each others emotions, the moves we wanted to make. It was years of knowing each other that made that possible. I don’t think I have it in me to get that type of connection with anyone.
“Morgan, you will find it one day, maybe not the same as with Karen because you knew each other for years before dating, but something different, something more unique and intriguing. I know I have to take my own advice too, but it’s still too raw. We will be each other’s cheer section when it’s time.
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