Suddenly Johnnie began to stir, her body rubbing again the strain in my shorts as my eyes widened and I tried so damn hard not to moan out.
Fuck fuck fuck
She was killing me right now.
She nuzzled into my chest deeper, prompting me to raise my hand up and brush her hair to the side as she blinked her beautiful eyes open.
That’s when the realization hit her that I in fact was not a pillow.
She gasped, her body wriggling on top of me as I let out a hiss.
“For fucks sake Johnnie, stop moving like that please.” I rushed out, making her freeze as I lifted my hips, trying to adjust myself and poking into her waist as her mouth opened wide, letting out a gasp.
“Just..move this way.” I added while going to grip her side but made her jerk away as she sat up, straddling my lap now.
Now it was my turn to look at her with wide eyes. Holy shit she looked fucking gorgeous.
Her full chest rose and fell deeply as her palms were now flat against my abs, making me flex my hips and as she lifted slightly, fuck it..I can’t take it anymore.
I sat up, my fingers buried in her hair as I crashed my lips to hers, kissing her deeply as I felt her wriggle on top of me.
I slid my tongue against her, my mouth opening wider as I tasted her sweet lips, making me groan with excitement..I have never kissed someone like this in my life..it felt so fucking natural and addictive..I needed more.
Biting down gently, I knew this would grant me the access I needed as Johnnie opened her mouth with a whimper, prompting me to slip my tongue inside of her greedily.
I began exploring every inch of her wetness, my tongue rolling against her own as I tilted her head back, deepening the kiss as much as possible as I delved down her damn throat, swallowing every breath and sound hungrily.
I ground my hips against her, showing exactly what she did to me as I felt my cock throbbing almost painfully..shit..I wanted her bad..really fucking back.
Just then, I heard a knock on the door, prompting me to freeze as Johnnie pulled her head back hastily, her eyes filling with panic as her mom began to speak through the door.
“Johnnie, I’m coming in!” She shouted, making Johnnie freak the hell out as she began shoving me towards the side of the bed.
“Hide!!” She whispered, the way she was pushing me almost making me laugh as she looked so damn adorable right now.
“Okay! Jeez!” I mumbled and jumped out of bed before diving into the bathroom and shutting the door.
“Uh..come in!” Johnnie suddenly yelled nervously, making me smile from ear to ear as I hid in the shower..not really hiding very well considering it was made of glass.
Fuck..that was incredible.
I lifted my hand, feeling my throbbing lips as my heart raced uncontrollably…I’m in trouble.
I think I’m officially all in..and that isn’t good..I need to slow the hell down for Johnnie’s sake…but fuck me she tastes good.
(Johnnie)
What the hell was I doing?! I can’t believe I snuggled up with Caspian again..but this time willingly..oh my gosh..Anna is going to flip the hell out when I fill her in.
Last night though..it was probably one of the best nights I’ve had in years. Caspian was just like his old self..we laughed and talked for hours..even though he was still pretty drunk..I even made him a peanut butter and jelly sandwich and he made me feed it to him.
I had never seen him so carefree and happy..and then I began to wonder if getting all of that off of his chest was what he needed all of these years.
Holding a secret like that in..I can understand why he was so hateful and pushed everyone away. It was like he became a shell of himself and only anger was left to fill him.
I myself felt guilty and gross about what my mom did to Viva and their family.
Viva has always been there for her..especially after Dad died she really stepped up and helped take care of us.
I am so ashamed of my own mother..and truthfully, I feel like Caspian had a right to feel that way..obviously, the stuff he told me was projecting and made me feel horrible..but he was just a kid when this happened..and his dad made him keep the secret..all those things he said and did, it was like a cry for help and I didn’t even know.
After Caspian fell asleep, I found myself tracing the tattoos on his muscular arm. This one was just a swirling pattern, but I liked the way it looked. At this point, I was just lying next to him…but I couldn’t help and gaze at his beautiful sleeping face.
He seemed so much more relaxed. What if this really is going to change everything? What if we can grow past this and become closer again? To be honest..I feel closer already..like the last five years were some horrible nightmare and the real Caspian woke up from a coma or something.
If things change..what does that mean? Would we..I mean..would he even want to be with me?
And then I woke up this morning clinging to him like he was my damn teddy bear or something.
But that kiss..and the way he rubbed himself against me..if my mom hadn’t knocked on the door..I don’t know if I would’ve been able to stop. That’s how bad this is getting…seriously. Every time Caspian touches me, it’s like I have no sense of reason..I throw it all out the window and do exactly what he wants.
I straightened my shirt..well Caspian’s shirt before trying to steady my breathing and glanced toward the now closed bathroom making sure Caspian was hidden.
Why was my mom even here?
She never comes to check on me.
“Come in!” I yelled out before pulling the covers up a little higher as my heart raced erratically.
I watched as my mom peeked her head into the room before looking around suspiciously.
“Are you okay? I thought I heard someone else in here.” She asked curiously, glancing towards the bathroom as I sat up straighter.
“No, of course not..I was just on the phone with Anna catching up.” I sputtered..knowing I was a horrible liar..but Mom didn’t seem to catch on..Ben would’ve within seconds though.
“Oh, okay. Are you feeling okay sweetheart?” She asked before coming to sit on the bed.
My mom wore a green sundress today with her hair up in a bun, her blue eyes studying me for a moment as I looked away and cleared my throat..this was weird..I felt like she was a stranger now..like..I didn’t even know her at all.
“Yeah, everything’s fine..why do you ask?” I said smoothly, feeling her gaze burning into me as I couldn’t meet her stare..I just couldn’t.
“Well, after you left yesterday and when Freddy gave you a ride home he said you seemed a little down.” She stated, causing a loud clatter to come from the bathroom, making me stiffen.
New Book: Back Home to Marry Off Myself
Loredana’s father left the family for his mistress, leaving them to fend for themselves abroad. When life was at its toughest, her father showed up with “good news” after 8 years of absence: To marry off Loredana to a paralyzed son of the wealthy Mendelsohn family.